Atlantic Beach Pie

Saw this posted on NPR's Found Recipes this morning and my mouth is watering. Will make this for our next community group dinner. YUM. (wonder what would happen if I added a small amount of cream cheese to the filling? hmmm...)

Recipe: Bill Smith's Atlantic Beach Pie

This is a newer version of a pie that is commonly served at seafood restaurants on the North Carolina coast. Chef Bill Smith has been serving it at Crook's Corner and at special events for about a year. He calls it the easiest recipe in the world.

Makes one pie

For the crust:

1 1/2 sleeves of saltine crackers

1/3 to 1/2 cup softened unsalted butter

3 tablespoons sugar

For the filling:

1 can (14 ounces) sweetened condensed milk

4 egg yolks

1/2 cup lemon or lime juice or a mix of the two

Fresh whipped cream and coarse sea salt for garnish

Preheat oven to 350 degrees.

Crush the crackers finely, but not to dust. You can use a food processor or your hands. Add the sugar, then knead in the butter until the crumbs hold together like dough. Press into an 8 inch pie pan. Chill for 15 minutes, then bake for 18 minutes or until the crust colors a little.

While the crust is cooling (it doesn't need to be cold), beat the egg yolks into the milk, then beat in the citrus juice. It is important to completely combine these ingredients. Pour into the shell and bake for 16 minutes until the filling has set. The pie needs to be completely cold to be sliced. Serve with fresh whipped cream and a sprinkling of sea salt.

rivers and roads till i reach you

WARNING:
entirely melancholy indulgent and sad. do not read if you want lighthearted. you were warned.

excerpt from this morning's journal:

time is a rambling vicious beast. i collect little vessels of time passage. there are tupperwares, vases, milk jugs and ziploc baggies with masking tape dates marked on them in my mind. for example, in the dairy case at the store, i make a mental note that the expiration dates i see are that much closer to October than the present moment. how many more pages in my devotional until the fall? the thickness, though smaller than the width of my pinky becomes a concrete brick on my chest. sigh. no matter how you slice it, 6 months and 14 days seems like a chasm that never closes. so you see, without even trying, my mind runs on a ticker (like the old fashioned train stations making the loud clicks as the flaps change the time/destination) a never ending countdown. its not that i want to live this way! my heart wants to be satisfied in the moment, thankful to God for each breath and sunbeam... not reaching and yearning for something on the horizon.

photo credit: surfer girls by kelco

(as a brief explanation, my husband is incarcerated and has been since 2011, and will be home, Lord willing, October 3, 2013)

mamma said there'd be days like these

have you ever watched someone else's kids and found yourself to be on your best behavior with them AND your own? suddenly you are creative, patient and even cut up carrot sticks just so. If not, this post might still make sense... even though i didn't tell the whole facebook world today what a good mom i am (just telling the whole blogosphere) i did have the urge to update my status during each bonding moment. because today it was if i had a supervisor or other little kids making sure i was on my best "mom game". i didn't have any visitors, but i totally brought it. (if i do say so myself)

pinterest "goo" recipe of cornstarch and dish soap! so great and a "clean" mess!

today i was the mom i always envisioned myself to be. life and sin gets in the way and usually i feel like i am carrying around a 100lb weight of guilt for all the "mommy things" i am not doing. well, someone should have been secretly video recording my day (and this day only) because I was all the things i hope to ever be to my little ones: patient, spontaneous, tickle-loving, hide-and-seek-playing, soccer ball kicking, devotional reading, cookie baking, craft making BOMB!

the reason i write all of this is not to show YOU or myself "see, was that so hard?" and feel the standard and pressure to live up to each day with my children to be super mom, but to remind myself that just like my bad days, i have good ones, too. Lord willing, these memories will outweigh the ones where i let them watch Curious George one too many times, give endless refills of goldfish, or I want to bake (or just simply do anything) alone.

today, God gave me a gift to be present with them and tend to their little hearts. tomorrow, i pray, i will have the same reserves and patience, but i am only human. thank you God, for loving me and speaking to my heart. (today's children's devo in Big Truths for Little Kids was on Samuel and the little boy who heard God's voice. )

P.S. the day still isn't over, so i am totally humble and praying that the other shoe could drop right in my face and all this mojo would be over. if that's the case, i will celebrate the little victories.

Power Nachos

hey sorry about the lack of post over the winter! (was catching up on important things like my twitter feeds and facebook statuses) but i am back baby!

had to make dinner last night with what was on hand, refusing to thaw anything from the freezer, I utilized fridge components: 

• baby kale, Mozzarella & Colby cheese, pico de gallo, and (frozen) corn.
• Then leaned on the pantry for GF humus chips (they are the bomb!), black beans, the Seeds of Change brown rice-black quinoa combo. 

Talk about fiber, protein, color, vitamins and flavor! My son asked for seconds! I think what was missing was fresh cilantro and lime juice. Diced mangoes on top would've been sublime, too. Anything you would've added?

Brie & Baked Eggs

if baked in individual ramekins, these could officially be called 'Oeufs en Coccotte'. 

this time, i prefered the rustic effect and ease of using a skillet.

baking the eggs gives a ridiculously creamy center yolk while still yielding a crunchy white and perfectly melted Brie.

Heat olive oil in large skillet over med-high heat, crack into hot oil 5-6 farm fresh, organic eggs. When whites begin to congeal, season with fresh ground pepper and rosemary. Place entire skillet in preheated 400degree oven until yolks are set but not hard. (5-8mins). Slice thick pieces of Brie and place over each yold. Season with sea salt and more pepper accordinly. Garnish with fresh cut tomatoes and grilled baguette. Serve alongside bacon and various jellies.

See Ina Garten's similar recipe here

Autumne Vert

 i imagine this in the hand of Zelda Fitzgerald in a Parisian bar...

• 1 part Pear Brandy muddled with herb(rosemary or chocolate mint)
• 1 part Sparkling Wine

garnish with rosemary sprig or mint leaf

capture that mint (this one is chocolate), basil, cilantro, in jars to use fresh and have at hand

when in doubt, roast!

this fall, wow 'em with the simple and extraordinary tastes of the unadulturated process of roasting roots. it brings out the sweetness and texture that even little mouths with adore.

what i did:

pressure cooked beets, parsnips, and carrots until fork tender (follow cooking time according to pressure directions) you will have to take out carrots & parsnips before beets.

then toss in olive oil, rosemary, salt & pepper, place in single layer on cookie sheet in 475degree oven until edges brown slightly. make sure to use your nose to wait for that aromatic smell!

veggie tales

what to do with those excessively large zucchinis and bulbous carrots from your garden? sure you could make bread or cakes, but you could also make.... PUPPETS!

Pirate Captian and his creator

bounty

ok, i know your kitchen counters probably looked like this too, but i couldn't resist capturing their beauty. with the late dry sun, for once, our normally wet climate allowed the tomatoes to ripen. favorite tomato varieties? Black Krim (a gift from my dad), Cherokee Purple and Sweet 100. Yours?

it's only temporary

This weekend I had the privilege of stumbling upon the temporary installation of Bob Seng and Lisa Hein's colorful piece in the shadow of the Space Needle. Upon further inspection you see that the translucent "glass" is actually household Jello. The plaster/concrete framework is built, then pre-formed "bricks" of fragrant blueberry, raspberry, grape, orange and other flavors are inserted from top to bottom. It is a de-evolving work, as it melts and oozes slowly as the firm, new jello looks down with scorn on it's disappearing neighbors below.

Such a joy was it, to speak with Bob as he brought me behind the installation and showed me the unremarkable simple materials used to make such an eye-catching presentation. I asked him if the concreted framework would be all that was left of the "body", a skin and bones skeletal system of what once was. The devastating answer was that they planned to deconstruct the entire installation at the end of the weekend. No remnants left behind. They would return to their homes in New York and continue to make other evolving art elsewhere.

Two thoughts hit me. Frustration at the disappearance of the piece and self-disgust. The former is understandable- I want to see it for longer, and even liked my idea that the piece would evolve and change with the seasons... But where I found my own self lacking was the inability to put so much work, passion, love, talent and time into something that will be gone in a few days. It takes a humble and amazingly open-handed person to be able to birth a piece of art and then take it out of this life just as you had brought it in. This type of temporary art immediately brought to mind the natural sculptures of Andy Goldworthy and of course the grandiose installations of Christo & Jeanne Claude.

The temporary nature of their art has much in common with Tibetan sand paintings or an ephemeral Andy Goldsworthy sculpture. Christo and Jeanne-Claude’s installations don’t generate a permanent, lasting artifact, but a fleeting experience for all who are lucky enough to encounter their work. It’s as much about process as it is about the final product (and the “process” includes navigating the red tape of environmental studies, government permits, etc.)  -(Michelle Aldredge on Cristo & Jeanne Claude and Goldsworthy)

I do suppose, however, the culinary world is much the same. You pour hours into a batch of croissants, Tarte flambée, or a Tandoori Chicken dish only to have it be consumed and no more... So in a way, maybe there has to be a generous dose of humility blended into the art of cuisine.

dressing a field grouse

it is a special thing you can teach your kids: to live off the land. not only is it a survival skill to be able to fend for one's self, it more importantly (and probably more realistically) teaches children the respect for the life they are about to consume. while I am not all obsessed and eccentric when it comes to "respecting" the food, I do believe there is a serious epidemic of ignorance in our youth and culture- in regards to being disconnected from where we receive our sustenance. growing up, we ate carrots with the dirt on, crab apples with enough pucker to top a lemon, venison disguised in fajitas and duck on the dinner table in the spring. as most of us do, I have come full circle and seen the value and cherish the way I was raised- taking little for granted. perhaps if we were the ones doing the killing, dismembering, gutting, feathering and preparing of the majority of out foods, we would be less gluttonous, entitled and blasé. more thankful, aware and simpleminded in our approach to consumption. one can hope.

“I dislike the thought that some animal has been made miserable to feed me. If I am going to eat meat, I want it to be from an animal that has lived a pleasant, uncrowded life outdoors, on bountiful pasture, with good water nearby and trees for shade.”


― Wendell Berry, What are People For?

better butter

i challenge you:
trying "churning" your own butter at least once. rewards for your hard work?
stronger forearms. rich golden, creamy butter. buttermilk! and the street cred for having made your own.

it's easiest to simply place cream in lidded jar and... shake! after a few minutes, you will start to hear a thunk against the sides as the buttermilk separates from the butter. give a few more shakes until you see the two distinct forms. add a bit of sea salt and voilà!

*extra special? add fresh Herbs de Provence and roll into log on saran wrap. refrigerate until solid and slice into medallions to top any dish for extra 'wow' factor.

it's all you, grill

On one of the rare hot days in the Pacific Northwest, it's a welcome relief to not have to turn on any heating elements in the kitchen. So we take our food (and our piña coladas) outdoors.

The Menu?

• salt & pepper potato 'chips'
• Cilantro Lime Halibut
• grilled Romaine Heart with pecans, cranberries and creamy balsamic
• pineapple skewers

Directions:

take a few potatoes, clean and slice thinly or with mandoline. Toss with olive oil, sea salt & pepper. Grill on sheet of foil so it doesn't fall between grates.

Take fresh or thawed halibut fillets pat dry with paper towel, place in baking dish and cover with a bit of Italian dressing, coarse chopped cilantro and juice of 1 lime.

Spray Romaine Hearts with olive oil or canola, place on grill briefly just for charred effect. Top with grilled pecans, cranberries and *balsamic dressing (recipe to follow)

Skewer large chunks of pineapple and grill on foil for a few minutes to achieve slight grill marks and thus releasing caramelized rich flavors of the fruit.

*Balsamic Dressing:
1/4 cup balsamic vinegar 1 teaspoon chives, minced 1 teaspoon parsley, finely chopped 1 1/2 teaspoons plain greek yogurt 1 teaspoon Dijon mustard 1 teaspoon sugar 3/4 cup olive oil, extra virgin salt fresh ground black pepper

Berry Rhubarb Hand Pies

Make Pate Brisee and add fresh rosemary
Mix strawberries & raspberries with 1/4c cornstarch&flour mixture, 1tsp salt, 5tbsp sugar. Roll out dough. Cut into squares with pastry cutter, fill center with mixture, fold over and crimp with fork. Brush with egg wash and sanding sugar. Bake @ 375 until golden.

Enjoy summer's goodness!
( I actually made these to sell at our family's garage sale for buyers to snack on while perusing!)

bakery noveau in west seattle

Bakery Noveau

While their acclaim is widely known via Sunset Magazine, Seattle Magazine, and many more, their delicacies still wow me every time I enter through their narrow doors. There is such an offering of goodies for your eyes to feast on; from pastel colored Macarons, an array of savory & succulent sandwiches, little cakes and tarts fit for a queen or Alice in Wonderland, and lastly, flaky croissants and pastries reminiscent of Paris' specialties. You must go and love it. Even my kids clamor to line up and drool over little treats and they devoured the Niçoise olive tuna sandwich and pizza by the slice.

I am hungry just describing it!

new flock

after losing the last flock of chickens to raccoons (those fat, greedy & murderous thieves) we have purchased some heritage breeds including Lavender Orpingtons, White Jersey Giants, Wyandotte, Sussex and Lakenvelder. I love them!



inspired

Here's a fun ditty for an (almost) spring morning. I love the Bowerbirds.



Little exerpt from NPR Music's interview of Bowerbirds and singer Beth Tacular

Beth Tacular: "In The Yard" is a celebratory song; it's one of those pure joy feelings, like when you're laying in the sun and feeling the sun on your body. The lyrics are about back when we bought some land. It's not land that's on some mountain range or a river or in the Alps or these amazing places we see when we're on tour.

The song was inspired in part by this story I read a few years ago by a man who took his son into his backyard because he felt bad that he lived in the suburbs and never had time to take his kids out into nature. And when they went into the backyard he realized there were all these tiny insects that they could look at and there was nature to be seen.

I loved this statement about nature and a sense of place. Don't we all get some sort of euphoric feeling standing on a special land, looking all around and just want to shout out joy?

Citrus Creme Cocktail

what a refreshing way to end the night... this would be perfect sitting on the front porch in the summer, too.

recipe:

• 1 part Jones Soda (zero calorie) Vanilla Bean flavor
• 1 part White Dog Woodinville Whiskey (trust me, the splurge is worth it)
• squeeze half Pink Navel orange into Mason jar
• Drink.

Butternut Squash Ravioli w/ toasted pine nuts and pesto

a scrumptous dinner that the kids enjoyed and adults would linger over with a glass of zin.

1. prepare ravioli according to package directions
2. nestle on a bed of shredded bib lettuce, so that it slightly wilts with the addition of the hot pasta
3. top with: pesto, toasted pine nuts, olive oil & balsamic
4. serve with crostini, rolls and favorite full sippy cup or wineglass of your choice!

Best Dough Ever

Hello Bakers!
I know the pinnacle of baking season is at its close, but a friend asked me for my version of the *best* piecrust recipe. Since it seems like this is next to the quest for the fountain of youth, I decided to copy my reply email to share with you all. (And also as a one-stop resource for me in the future to remember which one I liked best for the specific pie.) These are just for the basic pie dough. There is one missing and that is the cream cheese crust that you might use for a savory pie, like my husband's favorite Turkey Apple Sausage pie. I can update you later for that one.

There are two(ok 3) piecrust recipies I heavily reccomend:

• #1: Alan's Pie Crust
   The best in my opinion is for a double crust and I love the flavor:

• 
  #2: Baked Shell
  This next one is great for "blind baking"- like when you make a single crust for a custard pie and the small amount of vegetable shortening really helps it hold up during the baking process. Just remember to follow all the directions in regards to freezing the piecrust before baking and placing parchment paper inside with beans or pieweights so it doesn't puff up. It sounds like a lot but its totally worth it.

• #3:Pate Brisee
  Lastly, there is always Julia Childs' and Martha Stewart's pâte brisée, which is a lot of butter and so good if you baby it- ie. cold water, cold butter, very little manipuilation. I used to do this one all the time until I discovered the #1 recipe from BHG where it uses sour cream and vinegar.

Sorry if I gave you too much! I know its a simple question, but it rings dear to my heart as I am always on the lookout for the BEST piecrust, too!

Also, I haven't read it yet, but this might be a great resource for all of our pie needs!

belated: Fall Soup Recipe

 Autumn Curry pumpkin soup



 

3 lbs or 2 med. Sugar pumpkins, halved, seeded and cut into quarters
1 cup water
2 tbsp olive oil
2 cups thinly sliced carrots
2 small onions, thinly sliced
3 tsp ea. yellow curry powder and salt
2 tsp ea. cinnamon & ginger
2 tsp . white pepper,  ground
32 oz. chicken stock
1 can coconut milk
1 tbsp real maple syrup



1. Preheat oven to 450. Place cut pumpkin skin side up on rimmed baking sheet- add water and roast for 30-40mins or until able to pierce with a fork.

2. Sauté onion and carrots in olive oil until onions are transparent and tender. Add pumpkin when finished roasting. Cook until all ingredients are soft. Combine seasonings in separate bowl, whisk with a fork. Stir seasonings to sauté mixture and let sweat for seasonings to permeate squash for 10 mins. Add chicken stock and simmer for 20 mins.


3. Puree soup in two batches in blender or food processer.

4. Place pot back on stove and add coconut milk. Simmer. Salt & pepper to taste.


5. Garnish with spoonful of crème fraiche or greek yogurt and toasted sage leaf.

Added to the menu:

Serve with a luscious glass of Chinon from the Loire region in France

• Wilted Rainbow Swiss Chard with toasted pecans & Balsamic glaze
•  Grilled White Cheddar on Onion Poppyseed Bread

Winter Fuel

This morning, the kids and enjoyed a satisfying experiment from our kitchen. Be prepared to have energy to run a marathon, hike the olympics or watch a Psych marathon!

Make oatmeal according to directions on Old Fashioned oats package. (I did 1/2 milk, 1/2 water, for a richer cereal.)
Toast chopped pecans in a small saute pan, when fragrant, add ~1/4c. wheat germ- toast for a few mins until also fragrant. Remove from pan and add diced mission figs & 1/3c. shredded organic coconut to cooked oatmeal. Top with 1tbsp. of cream & agave sweetener.

How good would these be in cookie form (with white chocolate chips)?!

I am more

(because of You) I am more

more than a circumstance I cannot control

more than an ox with a burden

more than a series of catalogued mistakes

more than an broken soul crying out

I am more than

‘just’ a woman in a pair of high heels
more than ‘just’ a mom, exhausted and fulfilled
more than a set of morals & pleasantries

more than an embarrassed, clumsy, graceless, loud & unruly child

Because of You

I am peaceful

I am weightless

I am forgiven

I am redeemed

I am unconditionally loved

I am understood

I am KNOWN

I am embraced

Ashley Jackson 2011

grilled pizza

while this picture is a belated summer dish, it looked so lonely sitting in "my pictures" folder with no attention. So here's a recipe that you can still do out in the snow this winter, just bundle up at the BBQ or you can use your oven's broiler for the same effect.

• using naan or other flat bread, begin by grilling one side until slightly crispy (to prevent from getting soggy after adding toppings)
• spread a thin layer of pesto, and add sliced marinated mozzarella.
• Then top with a cornucopia of various grilled veggies. (I used red onions & tomatoes.)
• Sprinkle some sliced fresh figs, coarsely chopped basil, grilled flank steak & feta on the top-
• grill with closed top for about 4 mins or until cheese is melted.
• Before serving give a drizzle of strawberry balsamic vinegar or balsamic reduction to add a nice ZING to the overall flavor.

voila! a gourmet dinner for two in less than 30 mins. oh, and don't forget a nice bottle of Amarone or Pinot Noir from the Willamette Valley would go nicely.

Whole Wheat Peanut Noodles

cook about half a package of Whole Wheat spaghetti noodles according to directions.

cook/steam shelled edamame soybeans till tender.

drain noodles and place in bowl with edamame

add: 2tbsp creamy peanut butter

        1/4 c. Soy Veri Teriyaki sauce

        1/4 c. fage' or other greek yogurt

stir to distribute throughout the noodles

add sliced green onions cuts diagonally

and garnish with 1-2 tsp. sesame seeds

*optional- add red chili flakes, satay peanut sauce instead of the PB, or crushed garlic

enjoy! the kids love it and always ask for seconds. loaded with protein, whole grains, and active cultures its a complete meal.

 



grass stains on a party dress

so, as much as i'd like to go to sleep, there is a concept that came to a giant mountain in my head as i lay in bed reading a chapter in Makoto Fujimura's book refractions, a journey of faith, art & culture. when he spoke about his largest installation "Golden Pine" commissioned by the Oxford House in Hong Kong, there was mention to his massive painting weathering, settling, and intentionally allowing the silver to tarnish over time.

this then reminded me of my art- while i have never applied gold leaf or intricate brush strokes to many of my paintings (think brash, bold moves and splatters of paint) I wouldn't mind it. but then again, my environment isn't conducive to "fine art"- my studio is primitive, cold and doesn't support museum like archival temperaments. so does this exclude me from the more sophisticated category and place me into a more volatile arts category, like that of Andy Goldsworthy, who uses mother nature at the canvas, medium and backdrop and is okay with the transformation and morphing of his creation- which inevitably dissolves in a hazy mist of ocean fog, a rushing tide, blowing wind or trampled by animal's hooves.

so, i got a new blouse at Nordstrom today (stay with me here). i've had a gift card from there for ages, so with a few events on the horizon, i felt like i had a (bit) of a handle on some vague fashion trends at the moment. (apparently bows, pleated skirts, and over sized shirts are in) i ended up having to return one shirt because it snagged easily. then i got home with blouse #2 and realize it scoots off the shoulders. intentionally, i am sure from the designer's perspective, but annoying to me. call me a boring mom, but i need my clothes to have function as much as fashion (ok, more function than fashion, actually) so how much does one put up with for the sake of beauty, aesthetics, etc.?

how much can we step outside the box we've been put in (age, demographic, society, environment, stage, maturity, etc) and find a tone that inspires others but also resonates within their core. i love some of the new sitcoms because while i don't work on a TV set (See: Up All Night & 30 Rock) i still find the comical leveling that reminds us how human we are that we get baby spit up on us and eat cheese puffs in our sweats on friday nights when it seems like everyone else is out partying it up. how much can i play joanna newsom to my friends without them covering their ears and still be normal enough to sit down to a game of mexican dominoes? how much can we share the Gospel in the world and understand the pain without indulging in the same vices?

these are just late night ponderings as i get ready to start a new painting and finding out just how eccentric i can be while still reaching the masses. do we just take out our good china (if i had it) and use it in picnics, wear tuxedos no matter the discomfort and perform to an audience that isn't there?

Visiting Art Dealers - Awesome video clips here